Warning….kinda strange/moody post ahead…
My mind has been rambling a lot today since I read about the passing of Marina/Maddy77 from this forum. I never met her, and only knew of her from her postings here, but like I said elsewhere, she seemed like such a cool person – so full of fun and life! Her sudden death made me think of so many things. Hope y’all don’t mind if I write a few of them here…
…my heart goes out to the family and friends of Marina. She was basically a stranger to me and I feel sad, so I can’t even begin to fathom how those close to her must feel.
…when I find out about someone dying, (I’m gonna be really honest here) – I often get a feeling in my gut that says to me “that could have been me,” and then I am reminded how fragile life is. I think deep down, many of us like to pretend that somehow we’re invincible – but of course that isn’t true (unless you believe in an afterlife I suppose). I think I read somewhere long ago that from a psychological point of view, it is not really possible for one to conceive of one’s own death or “non-being.” Perhaps that is why many people believe in an afterlife.
…people say it all the time, but I thought again about the importance of appreciating the people in my life, living each day to the fullest, and enjoying life as much as possible. Easier said than done, I know, but I try, and I'll try harder.
…I feel so fortunate that I’ve been able to accomplish/experience so many things I dreamed about as a young person (and then some) – really fortunate. To be honest, I feel like I’m on my 6th or 7th of 9 lives (like a cat: and no, I’m not a crazy old lady with tons of cats, although I am in my 40’s and have 2 cats ). I booked this metal cruise soon after I heard about it because I thought to myself – THIS CRUISE IS GONNA BE INCREDIBLY AWESOME!!! From reading Maddy’s earliest posts, she felt the same way. So sorry you won’t be with us, you cool metal chick you! I'll be thinking about you!